Life...

Alas, I find it more and more difficult to write here anymore. This blog was my way of venting as I went through my big transition, mostly tg/ts issues(i don't like either term they both bring venom out of some people).

But as I stand on the other side of the looking glass I see that all life is about transition, yes some people like me go through a little more than most, but everyone has to deal with change in their life. And for me it was a hard change. I find it harder and harder to write about things now, I'm trying to live what I can of a normal life, I am so much more than any one label can give justice too. Yes I am tg/ts(I hear teeth gnashing) and I always will be, but I like to think of it as "What I am is what I am." I pretend to be nothing, I am me, the good the bad and the ugly. If I concentrate on any aspect too much I am destined to be stuck in a rut, limiting myself by giving myself an excuse for pre-failure.

I have been blessed in many ways, and cursed in many as well. I am lucky though in the fact I blend for the most part. I'm not 6'5" with linebacker shoulders, I have enough wits about me to get by and haven't been too emotionally scared that I can't function or have the need to drown my sorrows in alcohol, yes I am indeed lucky. But I still have my issues, we all do.

For now life is good, I have challenges and battles I still need to wage, but overall the storm seems to subsiding(idiot, now watch it rise up again.) This place will always be a part of my life, but it will be a somewhat smaller part of my life.

I'm keeping the page up for when I need to check in or occasionally vent when life kicks me down, but I won't be posting like I did in the past. Heck I haven't posted in almost a month. I needed and still need this outlet, but as life slowly starts to heal what it can of my wounds I'll most likely be here less and less. Life has been a beautiful thing so far, chaotic and hard, but looking back it all seemed to work somehow, someway. I hope it will continue to amaze me with it's artful dance of surprise, lessons, experiences and most importantly growth.

I'll keep updating from time to time, but for now it's time to hit the cruise and enjoy life for however long the lull in the tempest lasts.

Love to all, and of course take care.