14 days to go and I'm tense but focused to say the least. I'm keeping my eyes on the prize and trying to keep going. I stopped my spiro early and pop went the weight, 7lbs in one week gained, not happy at all. I've been rollerblading allot lately so hopefully it's muscle, over the weekend I did about 9 miles so it could be. Today I go see my gp for a physical so I can be cleared for surgery. I'm so afraid something will come up and I won't be cleared. Yet I know people heavier than me and who have had cancer that have had surgery a mile up and they came out ok, so I should be ok. Tomorrow I go see my endo and get a shot of T to help me toughen up for surgery. I can't wait for all this shit to be over.
God is keeping the humor in things lately as well, at least he's laughing. At my part time job I had to help one of my ex-line mates from my old hockey team. We played for a year or two together on the same line back in the day before I took to blades. I don't think he recognised me, thank God. I guess I've changed more than I give myself credit for.
There are other things going on with tieing up loose ends but I can't go into them right now. I'm just trying to leave no regrets behind. I need this to be as clean as a change as possible with the least amount of pain for all involved.
Oh shit gotta run, hopefully this will be the last time I will have to turn my head and cough.
Love to all and of course take care.
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