Born to fly...

I've been antsy of late to say the least. So much is happening so fast and I can't believe my struggle is coming to a head in about a month. While I can never take back all the hurt, all the nights I cried myself to sleep and all the night I prayed unanswered prayers to God to fix me, I can fix the here and now and the future. While I won't be magically healed I will be one step closer towards that goal we all have in life, but few achieve.

Things have accelerated lately, and as of now I have officially paid for my surgery. I just sent the 2nd half of the money for stage one yesterday to my Dr. I was overwhelmed when I realized this important milestone, but remembered there is still much to be done. I just got a message from my GP's office that my insurance isn't covering my stress test so it will be out of pocket, oh well it was worth a shot. Of course there is the matter of not having my dilators yet that I've paid for. I also sent her a letter letting her know that if I don't have them by a certain date we will be forced to start legal action. I had to know that the last little bit wouldn't be any easier than the rest of the struggle. Just as down deep I knew that if I kept going I'd get where I wanted to be. I've kept that faith for the most part, except for that little episode in '04 and that almost killed me. I knew that I'd get here and that I was born to fly.



SARA EVANS
Born To Fly
(Sara Evans/Marcus Hummon/Darrell Scott)

I've been tellin' my dreams to the scarecrow
'Bout the places that I'd like to see
I said, friend do you think I'll ever get there
Ah, but he just stands there smilin' back at me

So I confessed my sins to the preacher
About the love I've been prayin' to find
Is there a brown eye'd boy in my future, yeah
He says. girl you've got nothin' but time

But how do you wait for heaven
And who has that much time
And how do you keep your feet on the ground
When you know, that you were born, you were born to fly

My daddy, he's grounded like the oak tree
My momma, she is steady as the sun
Oh you know I love my folks
But I keep starin' down the road
Just lookin' for my one chance to run

Yeah, 'cause I will soar away like the blackbird
I will blow in the wind like a sea
I will plant my heart in the garden of my dreams
And I will grow up where I'll wander wild and free

Oh, how do you wait for heaven
And who has that much time
And how do you keep your feet on the ground
When you know, that you were born
You were born yeah
You were born to fly

So how do you wait for heaven
And who has that much time
And how do you keep your feet on the ground
When you know that you were born
You were born to fly fly fly fly