Hurt Trek....

These are the voyages of the starship irritate
and its 5 year mission
to search out new ways to piss everyone off
to find new lows in hurting feelings
and boldly piss people off
like they've never been pissed off before.

Sorry it's been one of those lifetimes. I'm not going to go into things too much here, since I'll just hurt somebody else's feelings by what I write. I'm tired of all the negative energy from everyone being mad at me. All I ever try to do is help people and when you don't give them your soul when they have everything else, they end up turning on you and treat you like you fucked their pet goat. I'm tired ok so forgive the analogy. I just tired of caring about everyone and always having to worry about their feelings, what I've done to them, and how I've made them feel. Don't I fucking count for anything? I love to help people, but I'd like my own share of things every now and then too. I don't want much, other than a little caring and compassion every now and then. I'm sorry to rant, but I'm at the point right now where I really just want to check out and go move into a fucking cave somewhere. I don't like feeling this way, but I just am feeling the pain I am getting back by caring. Maybe I should be a total asshole to everyone? Maybe I should just put myself first? They say you reap what you sow, but honey I keep planting hearts and keep getting barbed wire plants. All but a few of the close friendships have ended so badly. I guess I give too much and they grow to expect it every day. I'm no fucking saint, and I don't want to sound like I need to be on a cross, but I do keep end up getting the short end of the stick more times than not.

Long pointless rant, but my own words and feelings that needed to get out.

Go screw, and bite me.
(ok that doesn't work, Love to all and of course take care... for now)