Tuesday's tune

Freedom 90
George Michael

I won't let you down
I will not give you up
Gotta have some faith in the sound
It's the one good thing that I've got
I won't let you down
So please don't give me up
Because I would really, realy love to stick around, oh yeah

Heaven knows that I was just a young boy
Didn't know what I wanted to be
I was every little hungry schoolgirl's pride and joy
And I guess it was enough for me
To win the race? A prettier face!
Brand new clothes and a big fat place
On your rock and roll TV
But today the way I play the game is not the same
No way
Think I'm gonna get myself happy

I think there's something you should know
I think it's time I told you so
There's something deep inside of me
There's someone else I've got to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Take back your singing in the rain
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

All we have to do now
Is take these lies and make them true somehow
All we have to see
Is that I don't belong to you
And you don't belong to me
Freedom
You've gotta give for what you take
Freedom
You've gotta give for what you take

Heaven knows we sure had some fun boy
What a kick just a buddy and me
We had every big shot good-time band on the run boy
We were living in a fantasy
We won the race
Got out of the place
I went back home got a brand new face
For the boys on MTV
But today the way I play the game has got to change
Oh yeah
Now I'm gonna get myself happy

I think there's something you should know
I think it's time I stopped the show
There's something deep inside of me
There's someone I forgot to be
Take back your picture in a frame
Don't think that I'll be back again
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes do not make the man

All we have to do now
Is take these lies and make them true somehow
All we have to see
Is that I don't belong to you
And you don't belong to me
Freedom
You've gotta give for what you take
Freedom
You've gotta give for what you take

Well it looks like the road to heaven
But it feels like the road to hell
When I knew which side my bread was buttered
I took the knife as well
Posing for another picture
Everybody's got to sell
But when you shake your ass
They notice fast
And some mistakes were built to last

That's what you get
I say that's what you get
That's what you get for changing your mind

And after all this time
I just hope you understand
Sometimes the clothes
Do not make the man

I'll hold on to my freedom
May not be what you want from me
Just the way it's got to be
Lose the face now
I've got to live

Ok I know I don't seem to be the kind of person who would listen to pop crap. However anyone who knows me knows I listen to music for it's lyrics more than anything. This song says so much to me about living your life for you and not as other people want you to be.

I found my own freedom of sorts when I transitioned, but also found out quickly I also had the freedom to live by my own rules and morals. Fortunately it has worked out very good so far. I don't know of a single person who has as good as a relationship with their spouse as I have been able to maintain. I may have lost having a romantic relationship with her, but in the process found what love and friendship truly are. I have also made some really good friends in this journey while not having to change who I was in order to get them.

You see transitioning on it's own wasn't finding the true me, what I've done since I've attained my new freedom though is. I've found a way to be true to myself and not go crazy once I started living as what I should have been all along. It makes it worth all the pain I've been through knowing I was able to keep the good things about me while so much in my life changed.

Love to all, and g'nite.